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So
God.
Yes.
With
all the junk or what feels like stressors going on I have picked back up a bad
habit.
Do
tell.
I am eating.
Emotional eating. Like, I can’t stop eating.
Okay.
I am
just so frustrated by it because I was being soooo soooo sooo. I was making
progress and then bam all I can do is eat, eat, eat. Blah!
Tell
me why.
If I
knew why don’t you think I would stop?
I
think you do know why.
There
is this comfort in it. Well it is comfort until I feel gross… like right now. I
popped one too many M&M’s tonight. Food has always been this odd control
thing for me. When things are out of control I abuse food in one way or the
other.
And
by abusing food what is happening?
I am hurting
me…and you.
How
are you hurting me?
I am
relying on food to comfort me and feed me rather than depend on you for that
sense of peace I am seeking in the midst of uneasiness.
How
are you hurting you?
I
just end up beating myself up for making constant bad choices. It is all silly
really. It just needs to stop.
Okay.
Then stop.
Much
easier said than done.
It is
just a choice. Make it. Food is not going to fix the emotions of anxiety you feel right now are they?
No.
It is
just more convenient for you to go to food than me every time a worry hits you.
Just
call it out why don’t you.
Stop
the nonsense. Pick up My Word, pick up a pen and journal, pick up the phone and
call a friend but don’t pick up the food.
No
more excuses, huh?
You
can make them but I highly suggest no more excuses.
Thankful
that tomorrow is a new day.
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