The other day I was feeling guilty for how much I
need You right now. Really I should need You, like I do right now, all
the time. But then You sent me a little reminder, in the form of one of my
little people, how it works.
As I was writing the other morning, early in the
morning, before the sun had risen I heard the tears and pitter patter of tiny
feet in the hall. Little A was looking for me…her mommy. She needed me. She had
awoken from her sleep and in her blurry state she needed comfort.
I of course readily accepted my baby girl, swooped
her into my arms, and carried her back to her bed. She needed me to snuggle
with her, pat her belly, and woo her back to sleepy land.
When my kids are hurting they need me more than
they need me when life is kicks and giggles. Not that I don’t love to play with
them because I do but let’s face it I am most valuable to them when it comes to
food, transportation, breaking up sibling battles, and the daily boo boos and
ouchies that occur.
It is no different for You or us is it?
I love to watch you laugh, use your gifts, and be
in relationship. Please, know I get it. You simply need me to be present in
those moments not necessarily active. But when the pains, trials, confusion,
and hurts come you need me to comfort, console, assure, reassure, and stretch
out those hands of mine to swoop you up.
I love to swoop too.
You are my child that can come to me any day, any
time, and I will welcome you with open arms.
I get it. Thanks for understanding that it is not
that you are not valuable, important, and loved by me all the time it is just
that there are times, like right now, that I need to come to you at inconvenient
times and have your hand hold my hand.
Hand in hand we go My little, hand in hand we go.
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